Putting It All Out There

Instead of making my first blog about spankings, restraints, glass toys, cock worshipping or erotic photography all the things I love I decided to make my first post a “coming out”.  Who I am.  And then we get just plain naughty from there!  ;-)

 A few days ago while on Facebook, looking over my profile that I created years ago I read my "about me" and it read..........

 "I want to live my life to the fullest and when I am old I want to be able to look back and not have any regrets or what ifs'."

 So after months of putting off starting my blog and second guessing myself I, lady Arynn, am making my first post and I am very proud of myself!  The purpose of my blog is to tell my story and listen to those of you out there who have input and comments that could be an inspiration to me.  

 I am a married submissive and if that were all there is to it it would probably be very easy however, I am a wife, mother, daughter, sister and friend.  I have a career, I am a writer, and take care of my home and manage the goings on here.  We have four kids, 3 teenagers and a 21 year old that we love and cherish.  That are starting to leave home. 

 My husband, Lord and Dom and I got married when we were only 19 years old and 20 years later we are still together.  It has most definitely not been without its ups and downs. We have spent more years living together than we did with our parents.  We had our oldest daughter before we married so we have always had a child and have never known life, just the two of us.  We have supported one another in pursuit of our careers, raising our children, through very painful loss of grandpas, and so much more.  A few years ago in order to pull our marriage out of as rut we decided to explore new and fun things to do in the bedroom and found that a D/s lifestyle was very attractive.  Especially for me.  My Lord Clay was rather hesitant at first.  Let me get this out of the way now, there are two things about Clay that you will see echo throughout my posts time and time again and they are.......

1.  Clay never does anything without thoroughly researching it and reading about it first!  No matter what it is.  He is full of "useless information" LOL.

2. Clay dotes on me.  So if there is something I want he will do whatever he can to make that happen and if he can't he finds something he can do to take its place.  He truly has me spoiled.

(There I admitted it My Lord)

 That having been said, after his research and our long discussions and me assuring him that he would not hurt me, we embarked on our journey.  It has changed many things in our relationship in many different ways. Not only in the bedroom with the restraints, spankings and new toys but the way we communicate with one another now.  Everything happens on a much higher level.  I am his Lady in the street and his freak in the bed. To meet me on the street you would never guess.  I have also come to a place in my life now where I can say that I am bi-sexual which I will address in a post all its own.  And I am starting to want to push our boundaries, an idea which is not very well received currently.  Our D/s relationship has its obstacles and one of the biggest is overcoming is the amount of travel that goes along with Clay's career.  It usually takes him away 4 nights a week.  So going from being "single" career mom who has to be independent and strong and commanding to 4 teenagers to being submissive and surrendering everything is a very complicated thing for me to do.  
                                                                         
My biggest problem has been having someone to talk to about TTWD.  Except for two friends and Clay it remains silent.  My family and the majority of my friends would not understand why I get off on being tied up and spanked or why I love to be forced to suck Master Clay's cock, let alone approve of it.  I have read and followed many great blogs and learned a lot.  I hope that my journey with blogging gains me new people to talk to, new ideas to try and some really great advice. 

In my opinion living a D/s relationship requires more work, and communication than just being married.  It definitely means that you have to stop and think about the other person and their feelings more often.  It also refocuses your attention from yourself and what you want and onto your D or your s and what they need to be pleased.  And fills you with a delicious naughty intoxication for passion on all sorts of different levels.  Before D/s came into our marriage Clay and I were both very selfish people just trying to get through life without much thought or regard for the other person.  In my reading, I read something that I fell in love with and it is......

"Dominants are not great because

of their technique but

because of their
passion, honor, and integrity.

Submissive's are not great because 

of their obedience but

because of their

love, trust, and devotion."

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 I hope that everyone will enjoy my posts. 

 Clay, I hope that you find everything that I write here to be upholding and reverent to you, my keeper, in every way.  When I drop to my knees in submission before you it is not because you command me to but because it is a burning desire in my heart to exalt you above all others.  It is due to the complete trust and faith I have in you and knowing that you will always do the right thing for me and us and that you will always protect and cherish me as your sub, your wife, and your Lady.

 Light and Love to everyone!!!     

 ~Arynn~